"You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul and with all your mind."
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Nicoℓe Sim
Year 4 in Whitley Secondary.
I play 3 instruments, bassoon, violin and tenor saxophone. I love my family and friends, they are everything to me. I get wiser every 16 November!
Music is my life, and I want to be a vocalist! I adore my fabulous CG, D10! I'm a shopaholic, and I go crazy over pretty lil' things.
I hate sports, yuck. My favourite animal is the snake! I love spiders, insects and reptiles too, no worries.
I love rainbows and monochromes.
Lastly, I love being different. It's not weird.
Bfore I begin, let me just do this quiz on Facebook which disallowed me to post this up. I hate bugs.
Here's some questions about things people usually try to keep a secret... so don't be afraid to be vague. You can also skip if you want.
How many people do you have a crush on right now? -
Ever had a crush on your neighbor?: -No.
Ever snuck out of the house?: -No.
Do you do any drugs regularly?: -No.
Have you ever been so upset that you stopped eating?: -Yes.
Are you clinically depressed? Are you taking anything for it? -No.
Is there any "friend" of yours that you secretly like but say you hate? -Something like that, HAHA.
Did you ever run away? How long were you gone for and what happened? -Nah.
Do you ever lie to yourself about things so much that you believe it? -Yes, and will be addressing this later in my post.
Do you know of someone who has done a horrible crime but never got caught?: -Many.
Ever stole a large sum of money? -No.
Were you or any of your siblings in an accident?: -My brother sprained his ankle, does that count?
Ever got a piercing behind your parents' back?: -Yeah, 3 some more. Oops!
What's your #1 biggest fear?: -Rejection and disappointment.
Have you ever faced that fear? What happened? -Yes.
Who knows a secret about you? -Many.
Three words to explain why you last threw up?: -I don't know when.
Did you ever burn yourself?: -No.
What's crazy to you? -Manipulation.
Favorite cuss word: -Shit.
Would you ever want to be a model?: -No, because I do not want to be unhealthy and skeleton and bones.
Okay, I just need space to clear air out. I'm perfectly fine, but just that thoughts the devil planted in me just now just need to be thrashed out off my head! And I'm gonna write them here, and in the near future, to look back and say, "Hey, I've gone through that!"
Amazing God.
I was just watching Armageddon on Channel 5. (If you don't know what movie is that, check it out). And it is mentioned in the bible as well.
Revelation 16:16- And they gathered together to the place called in Hebrew, Armageddon.
As I read on, it gets even more interesting. As said in the summary of the books of the bible, Revelation, also called the Apocalypse, is a series of visions God gives to John on the island of Patmos in the Aegean Sea. To persecuted Christians, Revelation's prophecies of God's victory over evil in the end times are a source of profound encouragement.
I just faced a test of major disappointment. These thoughts just ran through my head, "Are you game for the O levels? What if you can't make it?" "Everyone is working so hard, and you are idling everyday. You can't make it!" "The season of growth and exams are here, you can't grow in church!" "SOW will be tough and you will not pass through! Everyone has higher standards than you." "People are taking advantage of you. Why be so kind when it does not bring any good to yourself?"
Seriously, I was devastated for nothing. Okay, not nothing but just thoughts Satan planted in my head to put me down.
(For one moment, I lost myself.)
Anyway, I feared. Yes, fear is so scary. Worrying is tough, and it really drains me down. I have no focus to study now, because it's just so complicated deep inside. I just grabbed my sermon notebook, and read from the sermon Pastor preached the day I entered Heart of God, until today.
I chanced upon these:
2 Timothy 1:7 - For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind. This verse really spoke to me because I realise I have no reason to fear at all. I have God in me, and I can banish all these thoughts just by His power, love and sound mind. Fear makes us powerless. Fear causes us to retreat, back off and slacken. I will lose my wisdom, my perspective and become illogical.
On the same sermon, Pastor mentioned to overcome fear with faith. To confront and go forward, and I can do well! Greater is He that is in me, I will be stronger! In Isaiah 54:1-3, God asks us to sing in times of desperation, to fight discouragement. Pull up something from your spirit, put your hope in God.
Mark 5:36- "Do not be afraid; only believe."
In my 6th followup with Jerlyn, my memory verse was Psalm 62:8: Trust in Him at all times, you people; Por out your heart before Him; God is a refuge for us.
In Pastor Kent Munsey's sermon, he mentioned about 5 battles we have to overcome. Two of the, are rejection and discouragement. The closest to you will reject you. When you begin to get rehected, you are going with God because He was rejected before as well. And when you are alone, lonely, God is giving you His character. Just as when He asked Moses to go to the mountain alone. He gave Moses the Ten Commandments- likewise, God is giving you His character when He was alone. In the alone time, God gives you what He wants you to finish. You will feel discouraged when people around you are going to let you down. But if you keep going in God, there is a place of peace, urpose, for peple who go through the negative. Genesis 4:27, 6:18 and 46:3-4.
In Dr A.R. Bernard's sermon, success takes in the form of invisible and visible. He shared about his story when his church started out with 4 people, himself, his wife and two children. He shared about his church, which they had to walk two miles everyday to pray and receive His word.
If you want the success, you have to go through hard work. You must be willing to pay the price, you will be successful.
I just repeatedly read my notebook. It gave me strength again. God's word is truly magnificient, and one of His word is better than ten thousand of us.
True, everyday may seem fail. But I have to be merciful. I shall remain humble, to keep others in prayer. I shall be selfess, not selfish and love people and life. I will go all the way, break forth and complete the uncompleted. Philippians 4:13- I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. It is not I will, but I can! SOW will be tough, but I will be anticipating the challenge, nervousness and stage fright. O levels will be major and soon, but I will gear up and equip myself with weapons to conquer and devour this exam!
I will live an others lifestyle, and put myself last. People may not know my heart or just think I'm plain dumb, but I will be merciful. I will move on from good to great!
Wow, the bible and sermons just lifted my spirit up. Time for worship and QT. Amen!
And yes, I had this sudden desire to blog. Perhaps my new entry at D10's blog made me do this? I have no idea.
But anyway, life has been great, and great, and great! Heat of God has changed my life over these 4 months and I really enjoyed my time serving God and fellowship. I cannot wait to fly above the clouds after O levels are officially over! Man, BMT, SOW, and more are awaiting me. How cool is that! Haha. Oh yes, please read D10's blog if you have not. Link's at the side bar, thanks loads.
(Here, Clarrie tagged me in the note of someone she knows who has best eyes! Am flattered, haha :D)
Sidetrack of church, and a little talk about school. I guess friends are really so hard to find. I really have nothing left in school except for my close friends. But you know what, it really doesn't matter (: All I need are you guys who are faithful and true to each other. We know our friendship will last long and strong. I really love you guys. (:
Also, O levels are officially 75 days away, and freedom reveals itself ini 90 days. Time really flies! It really seemed like a fraction of time when beginning of Secondary Four just stepped into my time and life. Pretty ironic when everyone wanted to grow up so quickly when we were still little innocent angels in Primary Schools. Now we see the variation and contrast. Haha.
Common tests commence tomorrow, and I have 3 papers all in a day. God is good and faithful, no doubt. I am going to conquer them!
Philippians 4:13 is truly a verse that refreshes and strengthens my soul. All I need is faith, and prayer. God is faithful.
Bye guys! (PS. Oh yeah, my recent obsession is Jeanie's ______. :D)
I have to blog today because service was greatly amazing! Pastor Lia was preaching as Pastor How was on his way home from Australia.
No words can briefly describe the wonderful presence of God. It's so beautiful and warm to dwell in His presence. This song made me cried countless times just. (And those who know me, knows I do not cry over everything.) The Holy Spirit is amazing!
I have to blog today because service was greatly amazing! Pastor Lia was preaching as Pastor How was on his way home from Australia.
No words can briefly describe the wonderful presence of God. It's so beautiful and warm to dwell in His presence. This song made me cried countless times just. (And those who know me, knows I do not cry over everything.) The Holy Spirit is amazing!
Lack of update is greatly due to my long hours of studying. AE 09 was a great impact and I'm gonna study every single day! A minimum of 3 hours and it's gonna be so productive! Read Flavian's blog for in-a-nutshell of Pastor's sermon. Amen!
Okay, if you miss me, ring me or text me. HAHA.
Bye all! Will definitely blog when I have the time.
PS. Will be on MSN, Facebook and Twitter still. :D
Look at the people, all coming together to pay great tribute to the late king of pop. It's amazing how someone can unite the world, the community and everyone together. Michael Jackson was indeed the best, and nothing but the best! Hope Blanket can rise up and show the world a second Michael Jackson! Can't wait man :D
Didn't attend school today cause.... Haha. Anyway, met Walter and head to Jerlyn's house to study. Had a fruitful Geography revision!
Okay, tired liao. Gonna go school tomorrow. Tsktsk.
